The weather as I sit by the azure water is perfect. The Sunrifter rays warm, the breeze cool and the smell of sea salt lingers in the air. I sit and think. I think about how I crave the action and intensity that I used to have here in my life, which can occur at any given moment, but also that I crave the peace of mind and the tranquility that there is within me now - and yet I do not thoughtfully seek out either. Instead I let what will naturally be, come over me … and I am content. I am at peace. However …

I am aware of everything going on. I watch nature animate, and I watch the glorious Sunrifter rise and set. I watch the tides ebb and flow and hear the words carried in whispers on them. I watch the stars glitter pictures across the skies as the reality that things are different now continue to interfere with my thoughts and with my life – and of those who say they love me. I watch in a slow like motion as I meditate, and I listen to words inside my mind which seem so lost and far away, encouraging me on. I burn these words into my head - as I watch myself walking off alone, blurring into the distance off the horizon.

The other person in my mind does not even realize I am no longer there. To them perhaps I have disappeared long ago by changes within our lives, but that simply is not so.
I am still right where I’ve always been, if one only looks in the right places.

I look around but …

I do believe that in the end, what is meant to last forever, will endure to beat the tests of time and what is not will simply dissipate.

The day dawned bright with the rays of Sunrifter and the sea breeze blew fresh across my face as I sat, comfortable outside of the lighthouse, simply enjoying the beauty of the nature that was all around me. I felt alive and I felt blessed to be able to be part of such miracles.
The Gods are so kind …

At Sea
Between wet feet
Colorful fishes swim
In shimmering azure

I had been working on something else for Azure and her field guide. The Soul leaches seemed like so long ago and were fun to do. I'd been looking through it one day and noting some creatures still needing imagry, and of course marine life caught my eye. I love the ocean and all the mysteries that dwell within.

I tried to capture in the big guy a pulsing motion and light reflecting through him, in a sort of abstract and fun way (sort of like me??) yet keeping with the theme of what would work for her guide and for anyone reading it.

She says she really likes it, but perhaps she did not want to hurt my feelings ... Just kidding!

I've got other ideas but who knows how those will turn out. But I sure love trying!!



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